August 5th, 2007
…cedarcreek.tv fusion camp // day 2
Well, things here are not quite as I had expected.
Sure, I thought I’d have a good time just being able to make videos for a few days. Thought it’d be nice to get out of the office for a little bit.
But what I didn’t expect was to bear witness to something I seldom (physically) see doing what I do.
Reaction.
That’s my buzz-word for this trip. I am blessed with being in this place and getting to see students react, in a very real (well, only God knows if it’s real I suppose), in a very raw, and in a very emotional way. Being up in the a/v booth at either of the CedarCreek.tv campuses generally doesn’t allow this luxury.
Tonight’s session was one of the more powerful experiences I’ve had in my Christian walk. Everything from the worship, to the media, the students themselves, to the teaching, was off the charts. Sure, there are things I’m not quite used to when it comes to programming, things certainly aren’t as cleanly transitioned, but it doesn’t matter… not here. All that matters is watching these students connect with each other, their leaders, and even to some extent; themselves. Also, watching many of them, perhaps for the first time, connecting with a loving Father.
I don’t quite know what He’s saying, but even now, nearly three hours removed from the last session, I feel God stirring in my heart. It’s my prayer tonight that God gives me the strength, and the discernment to hear what He has to say, then act upon it. This prayer is in addition to the one I have found myself repeating all day; “God, I am so humbled to be here. Watching You move in the lives of these students, it’s not fair that I get to experience this while so many will not.”
I know with this whole weight loss thing I’ve been doing that I’ve attracted many more visitors to the site, many of which probably aren’t Christians. I hope this post doesn’t drive you off. I’m not crazy, I promise. But I would ask those of you who are believers, to say a prayer for the lives of these students. Pray that God shows Himself to them in a big way. Pray that they have the heart to listen to what may be the first call God has placed on them, or maybe it’s just first time these students have understood what it means to hear Him.
I really cannot stress enough just how spiritually awakening it is to be here and to witness the things I’ve seen in just 36 hours. But trust me, even if I could describe it, no words I say could do it justice.
Josh, your Grandfather had a very difficult time expressing his feelings, and there is a lot of him in me, but let me say that I am extremely proud and extremely happy to be able to watch your growth not only as a man, but also as a Christian. I love you, son.
Don’t underestimate the fact that I am a product of yours and mom’s gene pool… that not only applies to all the stupid things I do, but the good things as well