i’ve had an interesting week.
friday i met with a friend for lunch, who basically in the course of an hour became my accountability partner as he called me out on so much of my crap. i knew what i was getting into when i said i’d meet him for lunch, so it wasn’t like i got railroaded or anything. truth is, i needed it.
i’ve spent such a large amount of my life skating by on talent (i’m not trying to be conceited), charm and manipulation. and it’s finally starting to catch up with me. the flaws in my character are getting more and more noticeable the longer i am in a fixed position. i’ve been at the same job for almost five years, i’ve been married four years… now that people are finally starting to get to know me and get used to me, it’s harder for me to get by “the easy” way.
it’s interesting to me, when i look at the big picture. is this why i never had a job longer than ten months before this one? could the same be said for my previous relationships?
growing up is tough for me it seems…
i’m committed to working through my issues. i don’t know what it looks like yet, but i’m not content where i am at, personally. i want to be better…
…a better husband
…a better friend
…a better employee
…a better family member
…a better christian
now, this is NOT an opportunity for you all to pile on me. it’s been a rough week and i don’t think i can take it. i’m emotionally unstable right now ;-)
here is what i am thankful for; a wife who is patient and loving, an employer that shows grace and desire to help me become the best i can be, friends that aren’t afraid to call me out whenever i start being an idiot, and a savior who’s grace knows no limits.
so, despite the rut i’ve been in lately, i get hope in knowing all the things above. i just have to follow through…
