today started off great. woke up at eight am, got ready and headed over to johnr’s to meet him for a little exercise at wildwood metro park. we walked the red upland trail, which is 2.3 miles of up and down leg-muscle-burning goodness. it was nice to have the company, and it felt great to exercise again.
even when i got to the office, things started off pretty well. went out to lunch with some co-workers, had a good time.
it was when we got back to the office that things started going down hill. there are a lot of challenges we’re facing at cedarcreek church right now, lots of new quirks that come with being a multi-site church. having two campuses was tough, having three now is proving to be more stressful than i anticipated.
so, things just started coming at me and piling up. frazzled, is a good word for how i felt. i couldn’t focus on any one thing or project, and to be honest i’m not even sure what, if anything i actually completed short of filling out a couple purchase orders. sometimes i really miss just being an employee, and not in a position of leadership, as most of my problems i’m facing these days stem from trying to find, recruit, train, schedule, and maintain a fifty-person+ volunteer team to serve at three campuses of our church.
i don’t want to put myself on a pedestal by any means, but there are only two other people who i feel comfortable with leading a weekend service without any form of support from myself or those other two people. that causes a big strain on me, and one other person. sometimes, like today, it can feel awfully lonely in this position. i felt today like i was on an island, and there was very little anyone could do to help me and my situation.
all that being said, at the last moment, one of my video producers graciously offered to step in and take something off my plate on saturday that was causing me a gigantic headache. so, that was really a nice thing to have happen in the midst of a particularly bad day.
