Love is Greater Than …Life through a lens of love and hope

that’s the dreaded question facebook asks me every time i log in. i saw it tonight, and thought “hey, i bet i could make a pretty good blog post out of this…”

so, here goes. here is what’s on my mind at any given moment lately:

must find job, boy i love the PNW, dang the tigers are starting to look really good, how in the world am i going to come up with $1500 to fix my car, mmm a cheeseburger sounds really good, i wonder if i’ll ever like football again, sex, i feel really guilty sitting around the house all day, why in the world haven’t i been able to find a job, if the cavs don’t win it all i bet next season bron-bron will be in a pistons uniform, i really hate employers that don’t find the time to get back to job applicants, even if it’s a canned rejection email it’s better than nothing, i really want kings of leon to put out a new album fast, why don’t i own transformers on dvd, i miss making videos, i really dig portland, what do i have to do to show people that their job description was written with me in mind and that i am absolutely the best person for the job, i wish i wasn’t fat, but man i’d really like some ice cream right now, i really think long in-depth conversations with great friends is one of my favorite things in the whole world, i like cheese, i wonder when i’ll get back to oregon, i wonder how long i can hold my breath, sex, dang bruno your breath stinks, i’d really like to not bite my nails anymore, but sans any other form of addiction it’s my only stress outlet these days, i’m really going to miss zach braff on scrubs, i really dig my family even if they don’t think so all the time, i wonder what’s in the fridge, is it worth getting up to look, probably not, boy i’d really like a job, was leaving cedarcreek the right thing to do, why in the world do turtlenecks exist, i really really love my wife, does ryanne ever feel like i’m letting her down, i feel like i’m letting her down, i don’t want to be “that” guy, the job i interviewed for in portland was so up my alley (creatively and spiritually) that i don’t even want to look for another job anymore, but i still will because i have to, how do i balance what i feel god is calling me to be and what i need to do to provide for my family, i could really go for some friggin’ ice cream, where are my socks, sex, i really wish i had some stumptown coffee right now, or black rock, or a fat tire, or roscoes bbq, or sushi, i’m really looking forward to showing ryanne oregon for the first time, i am quite sure she’ll love it, i’d sure like a job right now, gosh i want some chinese food something fierce, i wonder if anyone really likes my photography or if they’re all just being nice, i really feel like a fraud some days, sex, ryanne made sure there was some great lakes porter in the fridge when i got home which further proves her awesomeness, i wonder if bruno will stay laying like that long enough for me to get the camera, nope, i want anthony bourdains job if i can’t have the one in portland, i hope all my friends are doing ok right now, how could i have so misjudged past situations, am i right where god wants me, if so i sometimes i think god has a sarcastic and somewhat sadistic sense of humor, dang so many people have it worse than me though, so shut up and stop whining, my life is pretty good actually all things considered, sex, what time is it, is there a tigers game on today, will i be able to watch or listen to it, what else can i do to try and get this stupid house sold, how the crap did i get 600+ people to follow my stupidity on twitter, should i post something on one of my blogs today, i really should finish a couple outstanding projects for people, ugh i hate making people wait, i wonder what people really think of me, bum, moron, idiot, not really as awesome as he thinks he is, an iced kicker sounds really good, can i get some flippin’ ice cream please, sex, i can’t wait for the new our lady peace album, i wonder if anyone will read this post after seeing the gigantic paragraph.